We all need a break from time to time. I am no exception. There has been a lot going on in my personal life, at work, and in my marriage. To be honest, I just need a break. I need to take time to rest and reflect on things. It will take some time and at the moment, I am not sure how long it will be. I’m stepping away from the blog and website to focus on the above. I hope to return to it when things have settled down but as of right now, there is too much and I am deciding to take care of me.
It is a common phrase these day but that doesn’t mean people follow it or do an feel guilty for doing what is best for them. It is hard to judge the line for what is selfish and what just makes good sense so we can keep up our health to continue God’s will for us. Often, I feel the former, thinking that taking time for me or resting is somehow a waste of resources, undeserved, or just an excuse. I think that to not keep going is weak and have contempt towards myself. My motivation and drive certainly doesn’t help; always begging for more, to push, to strive. Anything else is unacceptable.
But for what? Probably ego, reinforcement for a facade of a better life, more money, more time, etc. Or just feeling accomplished. That if there is no goal met, then there was no work done and therefore time was wasted. And what resource is more important than the one we can’t buy or buy back. The one that only diminishes as our life goes on, no matter who we are or what we do.
So I’m going to rest. I’m tired of being tired. I’m taking a break to be with God and mediate and pray. Focus on how I can be a better human by doing less instead of more. The opposite of my MO. Wish me luck and pray for me. I will pray for you for the same.
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